~murasaki to midori<3

gah. how long has it been since my last post? i've been caught up with watching doramas (last friends, zettai kareshi, osen, nodame cantabile), getting crazy about Moonlight, plus horror movie marathons, i didn't really have the time to write an entry (and i mean anywhere, not even on blogger, or multiply) *acck*

i've been seeing a lot of posts on song covers and i kinda wanted to jump on the bandwagon. actually, jina and i did 'ai nante' and 'kiss~kaerimichi no love song' 2 weeks ago, i think. i always feel bitter coz i'm never in time to get the part i like in some karaoke project LOL. so i went and did my own version (haha~ some of you might be familiar with it already). i can't help it, i practically eat and breathe NEWS songs 24/7 XD

tonight, i went and did my own cover off 'kiss~kaerimichi no love song' and by that it means i did both tegoshi and massu's parts. it took me a while to get familiar with massu's part esp at the chorus part (man, i was never good at doing the 2nd voice). i applaud massu, it's really not easy, hehe. i still have to figure out how to boost the volume (i suck at these things) -_-

so okay...it would be great if you take the time to listen to it, and tell me what you think *prepares to hide*
and i also did a cover on 'ai nante' (this time using the back-up track, thanks to jina for both, hehe). i just love the angst in this song. naturally i was kind of emotionally getting into it too, this song just breaks my heart T.T

hai~ douzo!!!
kiss~kaerimichi no love song
ai nante

i'd love to hear feedbacks :D

oh and i can't wait for TegoMasu's 3rd single. the songs i've heard so far, they're all so nice. i'm currently addicted to 'boku no cinderella' such a cute song~
kimi ga sukida, kimi ga sukida, sukida *kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

gah, i'm bored again. i haven't posted in weeks/months (i've lost track, hehe). i figured if i'd fangirl about the same things as everyone does, i might as well save myself from typing. but now i rant/rave again. i guess i kinda expected this since i have been mum for a while (fangirling all by myself? XD). the breaking point, so they say.

but i miss posting in here, it feels bare, and i feel obliged to write a new entry (well, right now i actually wanted to post). so yeah, as i said i was bored again. i feel like there's nothing interesting to do while waiting for 'last friends' to finish dling. so, even though i have been recuperating from colds, i was in the mood for singing along again LOL

imagine someone who sounds nasal singing (it's not that hard, think of pi) *gets bricked by pi fans*
i actually love it when i sound nasal, it seems like my voice sounds better, w/c explains why i'm on a singing spree again XD

and since i'm addicted to 'ai ai gasa' and 'love paradox' lately, of course they had to come first :P
ai ai gasa - tegomass (tegomass is <33333 even though i sound squeaky and weird) :P
love paradox cut - leah dizon (can't get enough of this song!!!)

plus, i uploaded the old files of me singing, for vie, coz she asked for it, even though i warned her so many times that i might end up flooding her with links (they're so many i can make an album already, johnny-san~~~) XD
PREPARE YOUR EARS!!! *mwahaha*




acck~ she even asked for hoshi wo mezashite (i did ryo's parts for a project), and i think it was bad *kyaaa*
but bcoz i love her...*crawls under a rock*

yeah, if you haven't noticed i love to sing along to the music more than singing acapella :P


oh, and i finally had the time to upload new pics (even though they're 3 months late). my not-so-new short-straight hair...

ai ai gasaaaaaaa no naka de~

i did this more than a week ago and realized i didn't post it here. why am i even posting it here? LOL bcoz i'm practically 90% fangirl and 10% unknown XD

after 3 tries i finally got yuya (using my japanese name. haha, i cheated.) :P

( dear ayumi-chan... )

mwahahaaaaaaa~
i was so totally into it *BIG baka grin*

( 'hadashi no cinderella boy' w/ notti )

( when shige danced 'ai no matador' LOL )

actually i've got nothing today. except for this new icon. i don't think i ever saw this pic before (even though i know this is an old photoshoot). yuya's so cute in here, and it caught my eye coz he was wearing dark purple (and i love any shade of purple :P) and it's plaid. lately i've been into those (not wearing them, but on other people, hehe). well, don't you agree? he's really cute in this icon, ne? (not that there were a lot of times when he wasn't cute) LOL *pinchkissglomp*

plus!!! i just noticed something. as i was looking through my pic files. i kyaad at this. i can't believe how a shipper like me took this long to spot this -_-

i'm crazy, i know XD

...isn't that too much? that's what i'm thinking. i'm sure some of you might be nodding your heads in agreement. maa, it's not as if i had control over when my dreams start to get exciting. haha, you guessed it! i dreamed about a JE guy again *twirls* and this is the first time i dreamt of him alone (it used to be just tegoshi and shige). maybe i was really obsessing about my OT3 that it carried over to my subconscious.

i finally succeeded in getting some sleep. i swear my sleeping habit is crazy. i woke up in a series of sneezes despite having this really stupid look on my face, still hung over the dream i just had. i realized that my allergies are also triggered by not having enough sleep. the clock said 3pm and i had to get up. this fandom is killing me XD

once again i found a reason not to go to school. i kept telling myself that it wouldn't have been much use if i came bcoz blah blah blah. i know it's lame. it's cowardice. in fact i really wanna whack myself -_-

wow, i'm a pretty mentally-battered girl.

enough of the drama, and onto the dream (you saw this coming, right?) XD



--then it ended abruptly!!! WTH? GRRRRRRRR. i wanted to know what he was about to confess TT_TT

i swear this dream just frustrated me. and now i'm gonna walk around bugged with the image of ryo in my head. great.

aaaaaaaah i should go!!! have to meet someone at the mall. *zoom*

another boring day. i know i should be sleeping. i really do know that. but still i find myself doing anything but sleep. and i really should. i have to be early, something to do at school. but school is just distateful. oftentimes than not i find myself not going. i keep on ditching important stuff. ugh. i know if i were someone else besides being myself, i would've given me a good scolding (maybe a whipping too). and keeping secrets. i swear one of these days i'll explode. i mean who can keep secrets for long? this is hopeless *cries*

i need my OT3 *slides under the covers with...*

days seem to go by so fast, especially when you're having fun. before i even knew it, february has passed and march has come, taking me by surprise. i don't really like it, maybe bcoz i have some personal issues that i've been running away from, only to find it chasing me like some nightmare that came to life. and it goes on every day. i wonder how long it will take before i can't run away anymore...

i know some people are actually welcoming the new month (unlike me). it brings them closer to summer. don't you just want to get all the exams over with and finally take that long awaited vacation? i know i would, that is if i were still in school...

when i would look back and think of this month and this year, shige would most probably come to mind first. my month kind of started w/ him (for some weird reason he's in my dream again. i really don't know why!!! *liar*) haha~ so you probably know already that i'm bound to retell what went about (sorry, you don't have a say on this) :P


and then poof! i'm back to the real world. shigeeeeeeeeeee~ why did i dream about you again? your green hair is just *hurl*

NEWS saying they'd love to have a TV show...OMG YES PLEASE!!!
awww, i love it that they want to do things more as a group. i can feel that they're really getting closer...member-ai~~~
and please do something about notti...now that uchi's back i can't help but miss him more and more -_-

note: torpe is a tagalog term for someone who can't confess their feelings or make a move on someone they like bcoz they're too shy :P

my 7th NewS dream ever since i got into the fandom...well, i had it a few nights ago, but again i'm feeling compelled to write (or type) it down since i'm OC/paranoid like that :P


and my dream ended there. i honestly felt like writing a fic after that but i knew it would be utter failure again, so i decided against it, haha~

anyways, dreams of yuya always brighten up my day. i hope i dream of him more often :D

and the MS perf is so asfdhgkjladsffhkgjg
i'm really impressed at how tegoshi's dancing has improved. who would've thought that this kid used to suck at it? XD
and the rain effects. WET NEWS. *dies*
only i wanted ryo to get more soaked, darn...i didn't think he got wet like shige (who looked like he was showering LMAO) and the others...

to at least happily end this rant...

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, KUSANO HIRONORI!!!
*fights the urge to pounce on notti* :P
come back soon, ne~

all those birthday posts are starting to improve my mood...plus i'm watching 'devil beside you' w/c is really entertaining (can't believe it took me this long before i finally decided to watch it) mike-rainie <333

kyaaaaaaaa~ i finally went to the salon today and turned my hair from long and curly into a short straight one. when we first went in and said i wanted a haircut, the hairdressers and receptionist were asking me if i was really sure i wanted to cut my curls off. they said it would be such a waste since my hair was pretty long and naturally curly. honestly it was a bit sad to say goodbye to the hair i've had for years. some people go out of their way to have hair like mine, but i was getting tired of it. maa, it's not as if it won't grow and revert eventually. for now, i think short 'do is best since i'm going to take reviews for the may dental licensure board exams and i can't afford to fuss over things like my hair. i want all my attention focused on studying.

the hairdresser handed me the hair that was cut off, thinking that maybe i'd like to keep it as a souvenir (whut?) but i told him/her (?) to throw it away. i don't have to be constantly reminded of that, it might just make me regret it -_-

then the hair-straightening process followed. forgive me for being so chatty. i hate salons and don't go there much and i had no idea hair rebond takes HOURS! the smell of the chemical was making me feel queasy. i realized i'll never enjoy that part of being a girl XD

just to give you an idea of how i looked before and what my current hair looks...

(the girl in the 2nd pic obviously is not me, hehe...and my hair's still black and she has prettier bangs >_< but it more or less looks like that)
drastic change, huh?
hmmm, i wonder how i would look if i dyed my hair brown...

i'm still getting the hang of it (convincing myself that i really made the right decision) :P

yes, definitely awesome!!!
i really love it when tim burton and johnny depp work together. those two are meant to be, (not in a gay way) hehe.
i also love the fact that alan rickman and that guy who played peter pettigrew in 'harry potter' was also in the cast. the guys that i love to hate~

originally i planned on watching it with marga-dongsaeng but she had a tutoring job that came up, so after cake at leona's, we headed back to ayala and i ended up watching all by myself *sing's celine dion's all by myself* LOL
it feels like a one-on-one date with johnny depp :P
well, lemme just say first...it was one hell of a BLOODY (and i mean this literally) movie!!!
but i lovelovelove it! love johnny depp~ love helena bonham carter~
and i'm getting addicted to 'johanna' again...and anthony the sailor (i find it weird that he reminds me of HSJ's takaki) :P

i did meet up with other JE fangirls w/c turned out twice the number than what i had expected. the more, the merrier! so you can just imagine the endless spazzes (w/c in my case was dominated with tacchon, ryo, and eito colors XP)
i had pork teriyaki and takoyaki for a superlate lunch, and they made a fuss at me eating reaaaaaally slow again (when i was trying my very best to eat as fast as i can), haha~
it was kind of a riot trying to take good pictures by the fountain...

the videoke plans didn't push through, too bad (although i can almost hear my throat rejoicing)

hmm, i wonder if i would really get a new 'do tomorrow. my stepmom seems to be really busy, will she have time for the salon? i really wanna get rid of my long curly hair -_-

i feel you, johanna
i feel you
i was half convinced i'd waken
satisfied enough to dream you
happily i was mistaken, johanna
i'll steal you, johanna
i'll steal you...

*off to look for mp3s even though i should really be sleeping instead*

yeeeeeeah. i've been stuck these past few days. my brain seemed to have ceased working, putting a stop to all the fics i have started. i knew it was too good to last. well, at least i enjoyed my momentary creative streak.

buttttttttttt, this can't be!!! i have to finish what i started *flails* come on, u lazy brain, work!!!

lately, my mind's just filled with a jumble of things. still haven't gotten over that news of suju coming here on february. dream come true!!! a year ago, this seemed impossible!

i've started to watch kanjani8 vids (NANI?!!!) hahaha~ i have always found them hilarious enough not to take them seriously...but i'm on tacchon-mode right now so it's inevitable that i'll see all the other K8 guys as well. saw that daidaya (ryo's date with haruna) episode. kyaa~ i so envy her!!! i still wanna be in her shoes even if she was pushed in the pool. she's still tons luckier than me. can't believe we're the same age, she looked like an obachan! XD

oh and i've been addicted to recording my voice LOL me singing random songs from 'because i'm a girl' by kiss, to rihanna's 'unfaithful' (aka the murderer song), to 'stick wit u' by pussycat dolls, etc...and i even dared post it in the forum XD
boredom + thick face = deadly combination
so now my throat's all sore :P

sinulog has come and gone without much fuss. i stayed at home while everybody else was probably crowding the streets. going out under the rain isn't so inviting even with all the festivities. i just hate rain.

i love tohoshinki's 'purple line'!!! micky and junsu~~~

gah, i really shouldn't be up at this hour coz i'm going somewhere tomorrow (i'm gonna meet up with 2 fellow JE fans) and i struggle at waking up in the mornings. yippee~ i'm gonna watch 'sweeney todd' tomorrow! and gonna go videoke-ing (despite my throat's current condition, i'm hard-headed like that :P)

and these two are just so cute!!! hyeseong and tiffany <333


'nobody gonna love me better, i must stick with you forever~'  *sings on the way to the bed*

yatta~i finally went and wrote my first ever yaoi fic!!! a ryotego one actually. i was waiting for weeks for inspiration to come to me and it finally did! (thanks to the dream i had last night, w/c was not even NEWS related but it gave me an idea). so yeah, even though i was planning on a multi-chaptered one, i came out w/ a one-shot instead! maa...in my case it's a miracle i was able to finish one :D

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Love and Bubblegum Pop

i don't even care if the story sucks...i'm just happy!

and donghae in snsd's new mv 'kissing you'!!! donghaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

happy desu! haha~

was supposed to post this along with the two previous chapters but i got too lazy to type any more, hehe

i know not a lot of people would like a het fic (including me, possessive much? XD) but why am i even writing this?

gah, i need more ryotego rabu~

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uhhh, yeah. exactly what the title says. i don't even know why i'm posting this one up. it's so rare for me to actually come up with a story, it's been ages since i last wrote something remotely close to a fic, and it always ends up in...FAIL. haha~ and i was aiming for a ryotego fic (but found i wasn't inspired enough to even think of a beginning to that story (even though i already have the end written, LOL)

and this is a het fic by the way. and english is not my first language. multi-chaptered due to failed attempts at one-shots, haha~

just saw those smexy ryo pics from the BOAO mag someone posted. and isn't he FIIIIIIIINE @_@ haha~ ok i'll shut up now before i totally forget that tegoshi's my fave member, not ryo :P
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Title: Fan




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so how was it? did it suck? should i go on? heehee~

wow. so this was totally unexpected (bcoz most of the times, even when i have been thinking a lot about something, it doesn't exactly present itself in my dreams) but lo and behold, just from seeing the first few minutes of 'sugata sanshirou' and being kept from the computer for almost 2 days, i have been walking around with an image of kakkoi shige in my head like i'm hexed. the only problem is i couldn't remember exactly what happened in my dream *frowns*,only that shige was the main character -_- yeah, just fuels me to be more into my shige-mode...

yes, one of my bestfriends, charo, has yet turned a year older today. HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY CHA!!!

i wished for her to find herself a boyfriend already. so that i'll be next, mwahaha~

we're always telling each other that since we have our birthdays on the same month and i kept telling her she should be first since she's older than me by 11 days, lol.

cha, mag-uyab na lagi ta bah! hehe

yay~ 2 days ago i finally dreamt about NewS again (since i'm always ranting why in the 5 months that i have been in the fandom, i only managed to dream about them twice)

it was weird bcoz they were wearing their weeeek costumes (except tegoshi was wearing a blue checkered polo over the pink shirt) but they were performing 'akai hana' instead. and then when it came to pi's part, he came out from behind the stage wearing a mask and a cape (w/c reminded me of 'the phantom of the opera') and then as if things weren't weird enough already, yokoyama yu went out following pi, also wearing a mask and cape. lol, why was there a random kanjani8 guy? hmmm, it must be bcoz i have been seeing a lot of him in 'yukan club' lately XD

after the perf, we (i dunno why i was included :P) were huddled around this small circular table (the kind u see in clubs where u just stand and drink whatever) and we were eating mushroom shaped strawberry biscuits dipped in chocolate (hmmm, it looks like my fave meiji chocolate except for the strawberry thingy). so we were munching away, then one of the guy hosts (the set looked like hey3 but the guy was the one hosting utaban, not nakai, the other one, forgot his name hehe) started commenting that the choco-dipped biscuits were quite plain (hmm, this reminds me of someone from the NEWS dvd XD). the host just kept saying it, and then he turned to me as if asking me if i agree. and bcoz i had my mouth full i just smiled while pouting on my strawberry biscuit dipped in chocolate, then my gaze unconsciously met tegoshi's (who was standing across the little table from me). at that particular moment, i forgot i was surrounded with the other NewS guys and just drowned in tegoshi's eyes (w/c was actually a few seconds, but seemed like eternity). in the end i lowered my eyes first bcoz i was feeling embarrassed and continued eating as if nothing happened.

of course i was feeling happy when i woke up, even though i was still very much sick. NewS never fails to cheer me up :D